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I have to attend an executive meeting for three hours starting at 4 pm.who comes up with these brilliant ideas?

When I sample the moods around me I sense a lot of despair. One of the people on my team is having anxiety attacks over and over again over "what if".



I know a little about the "what if". There's a few of those in my life, too. I know that to dwell on the "what if" for too long is like staring down the short road to madness. I would love to cater to those, but instead I force myself to focus on "what is". I suppose in the long run that's the way to get through the day, bad stuff and all.



But the emotion itself leaks through to me. I need to shield better. I don't like other people's emotions intruding on my day and ruining the deliberate good start I created.



Speaking of emotions: did you know it's possible to channel those emotions and spin them in a positive direction? Raw energy, as it were, is a malleable thing. Can't really be destroyed or created, but it can be turned and manipulated. This much is true.

Well, since I have the lifetime membership I thought I should check in here and write some stuff.



Life is far too busy for the vampire who longs to just belong in the night. I suppose it's the modern status quo: you live in this world and abide by its common courtesy and practice. Work so you can pay for things, right?



I thought I would take a few moments to reflect here upon the Bebarlang vampires. Truthfully speaking after years of vampirism, I have come to a few conclusions: the Bebarlang vampire that seems to be in my heritage is not a creature that feeds on need at all. As a matter of fact, we go quite nicely along in our day time lives and don't really give a second thought to how 'thirsty' or not we are.



But there is still a craving for things. Power and power over another via vampirism is a strong pull. While I do not actively participate in my more vampiric cravings any longer, I suppose that the lure of it all keeps me coming back here to confess and perhaps to just let it out via another means.



I suppose that feeding on the life essence of others is a bit of an energy replacement of sorts. I do feel considerably better after such activity. Truthfully speaking again, it's a bit of a rush. Should I choose to hone these skills, it is all but in my heritage to be vampiric and to do it well. It all comes down to a question of morality, doesn't it?



Am I tempted? Yes I am. I know what's needed, how to obtain the state of astral projection, how to direct my spirit body towards a target and yes, how to feed from said target. It's got this allure, you see. People are so prone when they are sleeping; so defenseless for the more part that it's a simple matter.



All things said, it's a power that's nice to know about and nice to have, but it's not for acting upon 'just because'. Then again....